November 16, 2005 by j.

I just put my Kevin on an airplane and won’t be seeing him for the next two weeks. A bit introspective today.

If you knew your loved one would be gone the next day, what would you do differently? If it was your last dinner, your last conversation, your last kiss, the last time you say hello and the last time you say goodbye.. what extra words would you share? What would you hold back? What would you forgive and what would you resent? How empty would you feel the next day? And how relieved?

He’s not dying. Promise.

Had a lovely evening with Kevin last night, but all throughout the evening I was so strangely aware of all of the “last”s. Ah, this is the last time he’ll ask my waiter to get me another drink. Oh, this is the last check we pay. Aw, this is the last time we moan together about having had too much dessert. It was like watching a movie. I’m a bit goal-oriented I guess - my mind has already fast forwarded to the point in time when he’s gone, and I’m just a spectator watching events play out to their inevitable conclusion. Like GOD. I wonder how Kevin felt, eating dinner with God last night.

Here’s another one for you. If you mix sudafed and benadryl with two diet cokes and a glass of wine, how likely would it be that you’re fucked in the head and thinking too much about everything? Hypothetically speaking..

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November 16, 2005 by j.

laffy taffy makes me drool. on that note:

what did the flower say to the bike?
nice petals

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